Not Good bye, Just realizing

Lately my friend told me about something that kept rolling and strolling around in my head. She said, "You'll love the one who keep sending you message than the one that never give you any damn news" and i just keep repeating her words. She was right. Why should i keep waiting for you to give me some "chatty" thing on our daily conversation.
I know, and i honestly realized. falling for you wouldn't be easy. Love never be easy.
but the more i think, the more i understand. You can't impose someone to love you. You can ask someone to care for your heart or what. He will give his damn time for me if he care enough. So why would i have to keep this feeling alive?
He doens't even realize how i'm falling for him this hard. This is Stupid.
Then i saw a quotes on Instagram, it says: "He doesn't deserve any of your piece of heart. Sweetheart, you deserve what you give" and i was like,  "Damn. i shouldn't ended up like this". Feeling blue because of his rare absent on my life, try to be strong when i know i'm not his priority. I was sad. I still, am Sad. But what he even do?
He never know tho. Or he just don't care. Because he is too busy for everything else, and i'm 100% not his 'everything'. So here i am, writing my good bye. Hopefully this is the last writing i ever write about you. Because i don't know, after this, after all the feelings i have felt. am i gonna survive? oh hell yes of course. But what i'm not sure is, how i'm gonna face you tomorrow? Realizing that you have ever be my best feeling lately. Because of you, i realized that i still have those butterfly feelings in my stomach, (and yea, i don't need butterfly when you give me the whole damn zoo). tjjkk lol.
Thanks for you to that one. But this one,
no, you're not ended up hurting me. It just me, Realizing.
I'm so young to stand to one person to love that not even appreciate it. Maybe you just forget to say "Thankyou" when i give your birthday cake, and forgot how to say "Thankyou" when i'm the only one who remembered your Birthday that day on 27th May. Or Maybe, i just keep thinking and expecting something i don't even know. So yea, here i am again.
Realizing so many things that ended up hurt my self. But this is the way i appreciate my self. This is my way to eliminate you from my heart, as this feelings not gone too far yet.
Last, i have some quote tho that makes me finally have this decision,

"She Gave herself in small does. 
So when People leeft, it would hurt less. 
As relationship came and went
the doses became smaller
till she no longer felt the need to give"

So, this is all i can give.
and i am enough:)