It's been a long time, my knight of lost hills.
Been a while since the last time i met you.
is it 4 years ago? or three maybe? I can't even remember tho.
I feel like i've been past you for so long, same as i've been loving you back then for soooo long time.
Moving on from you isn't easy. And looking back at those days when you always with another girl and never look at me as more than a bestfriend, untill now even...
Now i just feel like i wanna laugh.
And here we are today. We met, after so many years been apart.
Your smile still looks the same, the way you talk is still the same.
I have nothing to feel again towards you. I still care for you, because you're still one of my friends. But i can't just skip it the way i just feel relieved when i finally meet you.
She's lucky, you know. Whoever with you today being your girlfriend.
I am happy with everything i got right now, never wanting us more than a friend (again). Because i know it will only hurts me.
You and i are somehow still connect with different way. I'm trying not to over highlight us, or overthink that there's still something that is not. I know there's nothing anymore. That's a fact that i need to draw straight line years ago. and i do still respect that you're having relationship.
It's just amazed me how i can manage to laugh, play, and talk with you without any tendency of feel more. Meeting you is giving me a butterflies, but that's it. I just happy meet you after all these years.
I hope we can meet again.
Cibubur, July 11th 2020
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