Why him?

 Why Andri? 

I kept asking my self about this. Why him? 

I asked my self so many times

Why i have to fall for him this long? 

Is it because i actually feel he's the one? Or it's because he's been too long stay in my heart and made me feel like i can't feel the same with other person? But it's not his fault. Never been and never will. All of that conclusion just jugling in my head. 

It's so hard to let him go sometimes, because when i think about it, i will never be ready to let him go. He's part of me, somehow. Has been there the whole time. I keep him in the back of my head, deep down in my heart. He always there, the one and only that i keep holding on. 

Somehow you feel like a safe option to me, even i know i can't be with you