Why i keep thinking about you?

This is exactly why i don't want you to near me anymore
you always getting on my nerves
you always there once you showed up
and i- once again, seems like doesn't have enough high wall to protect my self from you

Everytime we got some moment,
i will feel like everything on this universe is on my side
getting me along with you
we are meant to be with each other

but no, darling no
you and i are still, and always will be, from two different worlds
we're too far away to becoming one
you and i are fairytales stories i couldn't even get done with

i always wanted you
i always pray you're the answer of my question all this time
but i think no, we just meet and meet
never really touch each other

i don't have the courage to be close to you,
either you don't have any feeling towards me,
even sometimes i still want to assure my self, you have
but i can't keep my high hopes too long

I can't be like this
hoping for you, at once upon a time or in someday
become my prince charming in knight armour
i can't live in a fantasy, only hoping and hoping

this is why i need to stop thinking about you
the more i think,
the more i like you
and the more i'm gonna fall into you -again

after all these time,
i'm not ready to fall in the same hole again
you're that one kind of person, that i love so bad
but i will never be brave enough to love you loudly

so here i am
trying to stop
and moving on
like what i always did