My Worth

Jahat

Satu-satunya kata yang sangat tepat menggambarkanmu.
Kemarin, 17 September 2018
Tepat satu tahun satu hari sejak sunset bersama kita dan perjalanan itu.

Jika perkara orangtua adalah bahasanmu,
mengapa tak jujur saja padaku?
Mengapa harus membuatku merasa bahwa aku adalah sebuah kesia-siaan?
Sebegitu tak berharganya kah aku untukmu?

satu tahun, entah lebih berapa hari
Aku memutuskan selesai.
I am letting you go,
not because i want to in the first place
but because you letting me go first and making it like i am the one who asking

If your problem is too afraid to asking,
then you're a coward
and i am hurt because of the way you break me up
you're the one who want it, yet you ask me to do it.
you ask me to carry the whole hurt feeling by asking
do you think it's easy for me?

you don't even ask me about how i feel
you don't even care
you never care

and untill now i'm still asking my self
how i'm being blind by your careless.
and i ask my self, did he ever love me?
even once

he never said it.
clearly

And here i am,
hurting
by the way your leaving
and the hole you left in my heart
but darling,
i love my worth more than you
i should do, i have to

because i can't let my self losing my worth again just because of you

you said you don't want it end like this
but you're the one who doing it
and i can't help my self
i am hurting
because you hurt my worth,
you make me feel like i'm not worth it at all
like all this time, i'm just another trial in your life

You hurt me enough
and i wish i'll never write about you anymore
so you're stopping in my life starting from now on
i am worth it enough to let you go