After you left

Dear D, 

It’s almost 1 month since you left. Since i made the decision about our break up. 

But i hope you know this 

I’m doing the best for what i know, is for us. I ask to stop whatever we’re doing, because i know you won’t in this relationship anymore. You want to stop first, but having no courage to ask me. But the truth is, 

Either you ask me to break up, or doing things that finally makes me asking the break up, 

Both is hurtful. Hurtful for me. Hurtful enough to makes me finally crying over break up. I never done this before. Leaving when i still loving. 

I am, still loving you. 

And sometimes it’s not enough just doesn’t see you in person to makes all the memories go away. 

I see you,

In every street we’ve been road up to

In every place we’ve been there to 

In every story we’ve shared together 

And in every soung we made it ours 

And i can’t stop seing you in my mind 

And that’s what hurt. The way i love you so much, and got me thinking you’re not loving me enough. You never said you love me. Now i even asking my self. What made you stays after all this time? 

Then i realized, one year doesn’t even can define and describe ourself to each other. 

I am hurt. 

So much hurt.  

But i have to get up

Because you did. 

So fast, you being all good 

I don’t even notice any sadness in yours. 

Like one year means nothing to you. 

That’s what hurt me the most. 

But i do, i want to move on from you

I can’t keep being like this

I know

And i know too, it will take so many times and take so many nights untill i know i can let you go 

But untill that day comes along, 

I will keep on moving on